Patulugin niyo ako...

Waaah!! Kelangan ko na ng tulog kaso mukhang hindi ko maatim na makatulog ngayung gabi... Habang ako ay nakahiga at malapit na pumunta sa dreamland meron akong kakaibang naramdaman dito sa kwarto at feeling ko me kasama ako ng biglang merong malakas na nagpop na kung ano. Leche talaga!!! Nawala tuloy ang antok ko. Waaahhh... Sakto talagang ako lang ang mag-isa sa kwarto at nakasara na ang ilaw. I just hope one time incident lang to at hindi na umabot hanggang Halloween...

Honest Mistake...

Me nangyari na naman sakin kanina na maisasama ko sa listahan ko ng embarassing moments of my life. Habang chinecheck ko kung meron pang mga residenteng hindi pa nakakapagayus syempre tinignan ko ang bawat sulok ng ward. At nasurprise with a hint of hiya ako ng nakita ko yung isang wafung patient na kakatapos lang maligo at palagay palang ng twalya. At siyempre tamang tama rin na nagkatitigan kami habang ginawa niya yun... waaahhh naalala ko palang nagiinit nako sa hiya. Buti nalang mabait siya kasi hindi siya nagamok at sinabi lang niya sakin "Ok lang yun" sabay tapik sa braso ko then smile nung nag-sorry ako sa kanya sa nangyari.... waaahh hindi ko tuloy alam kung nangtetempt pa si Kuya. (Gagana pa kaya ulit yung reason ko kahit na hindi na siya honest mistake next time? ahihihi)

Elemental Damage

It was a week that I won't forget for the rest of my life.

Flood:

It was another rainy Saturday morning and even though the weather was conducive to sleep I went to our duty not knowing that in hours I would walk in the flooded streets of the Metro. I was still complacent while I was on the train back home knowing that our street in Marikina never ever in my history living there reached the knee part. Everyone was at awe when we reached Sta Mesa because we couldnt see the road anymore. The whole area was flooded. We could only see the hood of the cars parked. The usual bridge on the creek near U.E. was lost underwater. I only felt the intensity of the situation when I saw the Marikina River which is usually just around the edges of the riverbank even when it rains. Everyone was shocked when we saw it at the edge of the bridge. I received a text from my mom telling me to not go home anymore since the water was already waist deep at our street. Then I heard that Ligaya was already chest deep. We opted to just stay at a friends house. At first we were relieved that the flood there was just ankle deep. Then flood came in without warning. Within the hour we were already knee deep. I was worried sick the whole night because the last text that I got from my mom was that the house was already flooded.

We were off early Sunday morning. We walked for an hour from Santolan to Marcos H-way. The scene was like it was taken off from a sci-fi movie. Mud was everywhere. Cars were at stand still and people were walking in every direction. When I reached the overpass I was surprised that there were still flood in Marcos H-way. I was more surprised when I reached our subdivision because the flood was still waist deep. I acted on my better judgment and went ahead because I wanted to be home and see how they are.

Fire:

Tuesday night. I was out because I had to go to the family doctor to have a check up since I was having diarrhea. I probably got it when I waded to the murky waters of the flood. I was about to go on the train when I got a call from my brother telling me to not go home anymore because there was a fire a house away from ours. I almost broke down at the train station. I was sobbing on my way to W's place. After what happened at the flood, then now this and everytime I wasn't always around to see my familys safety.

Electricity:

Thursday night. We were still living like we were in the Middle Ages. We were playing a deck of cards when I saw a spark outside the window. I went to the window to examine further and lo and behold sparks were flying like it was New Years Eve on the electrical line just outside our house. Panic ensues once again in our household. Good thing was Meralco was just outside our house after a few minutes.


Now everything is getting back to its normalcy and I hope it does. I couldn't sleep last night because of the incoming storm. I was checking up on our street to see if it is flooded. I just wish for a ray of sunshine for the whole year.

Funky dreams...

I think I should stop watching any crazy ass shit on the tv or movies because it is disrupting my sleep. I think it was just days ago when I woke up crying because I dreamt that W left me and wouldn't take me back. Now, I woke up with a heart attack because of another funky dream:

I think the setting was futuristic since the transportation is not land based but aerial. I was either
a.) a spy or
b.) I was part of a big syndicate and I was

a.) sabotaging their plans or
b.) I was betraying them or both.

Either way, I was on a ship (like the one the villain on Up had) and I knew that the leader as well as the other members knew what I was up to but they were being mum about it. I was already thinking of my escape plan since I know that I'm already dead meat. Then the leader went to my room to see if I was already settled in. We talked and I knew that he was just waiting for me to slip. Then he asked me to buy him something and I knew that this was just a trap. Then someone called him up. By this time my mind was racing of all the scenarios that I could do to escape. Then he was already at my back then he pushed me towards the window and I was falling then I woke up. Epekto ata to ng sobrang pagkaadik ko sa Lost at 24... hahaha

Why I love you...

In one of our conversations W wondered why I fell in love with him. He could sometimes get too hard on himself, somehow belittling himself. So I told him some of my reasons why I did. "Hmmm na-in love ako sa iyo kasi sweet ka... mabait... pasensyoso etc.." ( hmm ginagawa lang kaya niya yun to make me stroke his ego? hahaha) So I asked him: "E ikaw bakit moko love?" His reply was "Hmmm mahal kita kasi mataba ka, lagi mokong pinapagselos, isip bata etc..." (atalagang inuna niya ang pagiging mataba ko sa listahan ng dahilan kung bakit niya ako love... grrr) Sabi ko "Bakit parang wala naman atang positive sa mga sinabi mo?" Ang sagot lang niya eh: "Hindi naman dapat lahat positive eh" And I thought I was going to hear some good stuff.

Honestly, W wasn't my ideal guy. He is shorter than me, younger than me and let's just say that sparks wasn't there on our first date. However in time, little by little all the criteria that I made were broken down by W. Yes he may not be model material but I smile whenever I try to picture his face. He made me a sucker for love stories. When we saw Up, I cried over the love story of Carl and Ellie. I cried because I was picturing our love to be like that. I was wishing that we could be like them. Growing old together. (ok maybe not too old kasi ayoko talagang tumanda as in matanda... ayan napaiyak na naman ako just thinking about it) I love him because he is my total opposite and yet he understands me completely. I love him because he makes me laugh and appreciate simple things. I love him because of all that and many more...

Take note...

Just when I was to give up on everything including us, He texted me this : "Basta alam ko masaya ako pag kasama kita. Ang buhay talaganag may ups and downs. Dapat minsan kelangan natin magsacrifice para sa taong mahal natin. Yun ang ginagawa ko kasi mahal kita. Gusto ko lang makita mo kung gano ka kaimportante sakin." I almost cried when I read this but I was in the public so sinupress ko but it made me realize how unfair I was to him and reminded me again how great his love was. I think I'll be ok.

Jaded

I cant sleep. I've been thinking about what happened last weekend. How people could be so insensitive and unappreciative to someone. About how friends suddenly change just because they found another company or how they don't value what you've had together because of something. About how fragile a relationship is. One day you're bonded like steel and then burnt the next second. I am questioning abot my own relationships and right now I'm jaded...