Looking forward to November...

I just had the best news yet this week which is for me to be a volunteer on a hospital in the department where I so want to work. OR here I come. Yay! The only catch is I have to try to be peppermint and be as discreet as possible since the doctor who made it possible for me to have a spot there is a friend of my dad's friend. Talk about complicated. I'm just happy-scared for what will happen to me next week. waaahhh but I'm happy I get to be in a hospital again... ;p

I need something new...

I'm trying to keep myself positive right now. I've been pretty calm and collected this past weeks. But the sleepless nights I had this week plus several events that happened over the weekend got into my safe place and now I'm cautious that I may be pulled back to my not so happy place. I have to try and think of something new to do tomorrow...

Si Common friend...

I went to see a friend na matagaltagal ko na ring hindi nakakabonding, si Miss A. We catched up on whats been happening with each other at dahil na rin sakin ay nasama na naman sa usapan si C who used to be our common friend. He used to be someone I really treasure. Pero ngaun yun na nga lang ang titulo niya sa amin. Si Common friend. I guess pili lang talaga ang mga friends na makakasama mo hanggang sa tumanda ka.

Way Stupid...

The hard drive which I impulsively bought crashed and all the files I backed up are gone. I'm so stupid...waaahhhh.

I knew it...

You Are 63% Pure

You're pretty pure, and you have no plans on changing that. You do have a devilish side though... and it will probably get the better of you.

The 100 Question Purity Test

Akalain mo yun..

Dahil sa madali lang ang aking naging transaksyon sa Cardinal kaninang umaga. Naisipan ko nalang na manuod ng sine para lang hindi masayang ang ineffort ko sa paglabas ng bahay. Naisipan kong panuorin ang Max Payne dahil mukha naman syang kanaisnais na pelikula base sa trailer. At as usual sana trailer nalang pinanuod ko. Maganda ang special effects kaso nabore ako sa story nya. At dahil dyan kaya naisipan ko nalang pagmasdan ang mga kakaunting tao na kasama kong manood. At dahil kakapirangot lang ang kasama ko sa sine madali kong napansin ang isang couple na kakatwa na napili nila na yun ang pelikulang panuorin. Bakit? Kasi parang hindi nila maappreciate yung movie dahil sa age nila. hehehe natuwa lang ako kasi kahit na uugod ugod na sila at meron ng hawak na baston ay nageenjoy sila sa barilan ang eksena. hehehe

Plans...

I just came to another realization today. Try to live without or as little plan as possible. I know I've made a lot of plans earlier this year and and most of them didn't work out the way that I had planned them. Growing up, I know I made a time map of myself that I would be at this point at this age not knowing that things change and that life is so uncertain. I have to not stress so much about what the future holds and just work out things that are in the present. I'll still have my goals but I'll scrap the timeline...;p

Mawalang galang lang...

Kaninang umaga pumunta ako sa isang institution for special children to see if I qualify to be a volunteer there since I'm not doing anything productive as of this moment. I had a talk with the lady who manages the institution and then she said "Mawalang galang lang ha..." Uh-oh. I knew what she was going to ask next. "Gay ka ba?" I said yes. And then she told that she has nothing against gay people as she has relatives who are like me. Pero pinangaralan niya ako about how the kids are innocent at walang malisya at dahil dun madali silang maabuso. I wanted to roll my eyes. I know that. All children are like that. I understand where she is coming from. I know that she is concerned about the kid's welfare pero sana lang she wouldn't make any assumptions about a person's character based on their sexuality. I felt discriminated after that. I went there with good intentions tapos lumabas pang I don't have any right to take care of children. Being gay doesn't equate to you being a bad influence.

Panaginip lang pala...

Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong matuwa o madisappoint sa napaginipan ko kagabi about my mom. Hindi ko na matandaan ang buong details tungkol sa dream ko pero ang moment na talagang nagstuck sakin sa panaginip ko e yung inout ako ng mom ko. I knew I was talking to someone and my mom was there and then all of a sudden she made a comment about how she knew all along about me and I was dumbstruck. I wanted to ask her questions but then there was a blinding light and I was back to reality.

Saling KetKet

The Three Kingdoms

I am fond of watching foreign films and one of my favorites besides French are Chinese films. That's why when I saw that this was already screening in the cinemas I persuaded J to watch this instead of doing something else while we were waiting for the rain to stop. The sound effects was great but the usual chinese fight scenes which I am fond of was lacking. The story was ok but the title threw me off a bit because I was expecting that it was about three kingdoms however it was just about two of the three kingdoms at that time. All in all it was an entertaining movie but it wasn't as great as Hero, H.O.F.D. or C.T.H.D.

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Waaahhh... Me insomnia na naman ata ako. I'm sleepy but I just can't seem to get some sleep hence this rant in my blog... malibang na nga lang ang sarili ko...

Moments sa Kwarto...

At dahil wala akong masyadong ginagawa ngayon, ginugugol ko nalang oras ko sa pagdodownload at panonood ng gay-themed film. At dahil dyan nagkaroon ako ng mga moments na umiiyak ako ng mag-isa sa kwarto ko. Ang mga saralin:

Beautiful Thing



Bangkok Love Story