Coronation night daw oh... (naloko na naman ako)

Dahil sa depressed mode ako kahapon at biglang nagaya ang isa kong friend na samahan siya sa supposedly na sinasabi niyang pageant night daw ng Mr. and Ms. Pharma ng isang university. At dahil gusto ko na ring umalis ng bahay at makacatch up with him, I opted to go. Natuwa naman ako sa mga contestants dahil in fairness pinangiti lang nila ako saglit kasama ng isang host nila na kwela. Disappointing kasi ineexpect ko ang question and answer portion kaso launching palang pala ng mga contestants at hindi pa talaga contest proper. Sadness. We had dinner and hanged tapos nakipagkita sa isa ko pang friend and catched up with each other. My night wasn't what I expected but I still had a good time.

Don't wanna get stuck again...

My enthusiasm and positive outlook on me being a full time nurse is starting to wane. With what happened with the agency and almost all if not all of the hospitals that we've scouted having no available positions to offer. I try to be cool about how hard it is but it is taking its toll on me. And to think there will be thousands, no, hundreds of thousands of people aspiring to be nurses... I need me some uppers right now... sadness

I got duped...

I recently found out that the person who was managing my application for my NCLEX examination resigned from the agency. Whats worse is that the money that she collected from the nurses who trusted her went to her pocket. Now I have to re-apply my application for NCLEX, thinking of doing some legal action and on top of that most of the local hospitals that me and my friend went to today doesn't have any opening. I was drenched by the downpour, my feet hurts like hell from all the walking and I have lots to think about. I hope "Baby Mama" makes me forget about all of this later... haiiizzz

Need a Dose of Vitamin C...

Mukhang kelangan kong uminom ng gallons of Vitamin C and other supplements from now on dahil yesterday evening, I got sick and was burning up the whole night. Buti nalang medyo ok nako ngayon but I still have a sore throat. Ibblog ko pa naman sana na merong Shake Rattle and Roll 5 sa magaganap na Metro Manila Filmfest dahil kahapon e nagshooting sila sa ospital na pinagdutyhan ko. At in fairness nakakatakot ang mga supposedly na aswangs.

Sana ganito kaganda boses ko...

Looking forward to this...

Nakakapagod na nakakatuwa...

I am gearing up for my quest of becoming a full fledged nars with a job on this country. At para magkaroon ako ng chance para sa ginintuang tawag ng mga ospital o kahit klinika man lang, kelangan kong sumailalim sa IV therapy.

At ngaun ang start ng completion ko ng aking mga cases para matawag na akong IV nars. Nakakakaba dahil hindi na naman ako nagaral ng notes ko before this day. At ang laman ng utak ko pa rin hanggang ngayon ay ang seminar na inatendan ko last week about Advanced Cardiac Life Support at ang pagkamangha ko sa sarili ko ng pagbasa ng ECG. Kaya lagi ko uling binabalikan mentally ang mga nangyari nun.

At dahil excited ako at ayoko na ring mapahiya sa unang araw ng completion nageffort talaga akong gumising ng maaga. At dahil dun nakita ko rin ang isa sa mga intern na pinagdemohan ko nun kung saan tinawanan ako dahil confident kong sinagot ang kanyang tanong kahit na mali ito hehehe. (Buti nalang may short term memory loss rin ata sya katulad ng isang kakilala ko hahaha)

Masakit ang paa ko nung pauwi nako sa kakalakad sa buong ward namin o di kaya dahil sa tagal ng pagtayo ko. Muntik nakong atakihin sa kaba dahil hindi ko alam kung tama ba ang sinasagot ko sa nars na in-charge sakin at ang kasama ko pang isa. Nakakapagod at nakakatakot pero at the same time natutuwa ako dahil at least nagsisimula ko nang magawa ang pinaghirapan ko ng almost 5 years.;p

Survivor blah!

Kahapon nagstart ang Survivor Philippines which I personally think was a bad idea since I am a fan of Survivor and I don't think they could pull it off like the original Survivor series. Pero dahil curious ako I gave them the benefit of a doubt and watched it. OMG!!! Mangagaya na nga lang hindi pa gawing maayos. Terrible is an understatement. Una, kelangan ba talaga kahit ang style ni Jeff Probst sa damit e kelangang gayahin? Pati ang location nila ginaya rin. The opening scene of Survivor which is usually exciting and grand took forever. At kelangan talaga mega detail si Paolo sa pageexplain ng nangyayari sa mga castaways with matching side comments na hindi naman talaga necessary dahil uhmmm obvious na naman yung nangyayari diba. At anung nangyari sa gagamitin lang nila yung mga damit nila na suot nila e binigyan rin sila ng raincoats at appropriate shoes!! Survivor nga ba ito?? Pero di lang yon kelangan talagang ipakita ang puzzle na kelangan nilang gawin e kaya nga tinawag na puzzle eh para ittry nilang ifigure out yun. At supposedly e neutral lang si Paolo e tinuruan niya kaya yung guys team dun sa rewards challenge. Talk about fairness. At ang pinakamasamang ginawa nila sa format ng Survivor e hindi pala ito 1 hour show once a week kung hindi EVERYDAY!!! Anu pang excitement dun?? E yun yung rason why I'm looking forward to the next episode because for sure something unexpected happened pero ang isang buong linggo ng crappy episodes!!! Dapat talaga iban na ang paggaya ng mga international shows kung hindi rin naman nila maeexecute ng maayos!!!

(Medyo naghihimutok lang dahil binaboy nila ang Survivor series e fan pa naman ako nun hmph)

I'm afraid of %E@!....

Yesterday I just realized that I'm afraid to be intimate again with anyone. After the scare that I had months ago for some nights where I succumbed (nosebleed) to my hormones. I am relieved by the news that it was just a wake up call for me. And yesterday, I realized that I've put up a wall around me and that's the reason why I wasn't my old self again. I know it is unnatural to be afraid of something that science say to be one of your needs ( Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs) but I'd rather not reach self actualization than face my worst nightmare.

Mumu...

Dahil sa nagbrownout samin at wala akong magawa... naisipan kong magpicturepicture nalang na kunyari mumu ako... kaso nakatawa naman ang supposedly na tinatakot ko...hahaha

Nakakamiss...

Habang naglalakad pauwi kanina sa aming munting subdibisyon. Meron akong nakitang tutubi at biglang napaisip ako ng mga moments nung ako ay musmos pa. Panahon kung saan nawiwili ako na mangapit-bahay, magpunta sa damuhan at dahan- dahang gumapang sa likod ng insektong balak kong iuwi sa munti naming hardin. Naalala ko ang mga hapon na nagpapatintero, matayataya at agawan base kami hanggang gabi. Mga araw kung saan wala akong pakialam sa mundo. Natawa nalang ako kasi parang tumatanda nako... hahaha

Heroes is back!!

Lesbo daw oh...

I met up with some of my friends yesterday for some bonding moments dahil medyo matagal na kaming hindi nagkikita-kita. At malamang kasama ang standard na tanong na how's my lovelife? (Bakit kaya palaging kasama tong tanong nato everytime? hahaha) I don't know why pero medyo naging mas tame ako this couple of month compared to my previous self earlier this year (haiizzz tumatanda na rin kaya ako? hahaha) They even commented that maybe I'm turning lezbo. haha. I still do appreciate man's beauty but I'm just not as sexually preoccupied as I was before. (I definitely am getting old na. hahaha)

Sidestory:
On that same night muntikan nakong magkaroon ng panic attack dahil
1.) Hinayaan kong umuwi ng mag-isa yung isa kong friend na sobrang antok na 1 sec. lang na sumandal e humihilik na. ok exag. 3 sec naman siguro dahil sabi niya gusto na niyang umuwi at kaya naman daw niya... My fault

2.) Hindi nagparamdam ang dalawa ko pang friends na sabay umuwi na hindi sinasagot ang kahit isa sa phone nila dahil tulog na pala ang mga loko. Kung anoano ng scenario ang pumasok sa utak ko dahil dun... Their fault hahaha (You know who you are... hahaha)

Heaven or Hell...

Naalala ko ang isang diskusyon with a friend of mine a few nights back. Nagtatalo kami tungkol sa pagiging sino kami at kung ano ang nakasulat sa Bible. I know I already have the same argument about being gay and whether it is an express ticket for you to go to hell with J before. I just couldn't remember what he told me about it. hehehe. Anyways I told that friend of mine that he would be fooling himself if he pretends to be straight even though he knows for a fact that he's not. I don't believe that being gay automatically gives you a ticket to hell because I didn't choose to be like this. As far as I could remember I am like this ever since. And as long as I'm not doing anything bad to others, I think I'm ok because there are a lot of straight guys out there who keeps doing stuffs that are so inhumane.

Another Great Movie...

The Fall
A Little Blessing in Disguise

An interesting movie that is both moving and visually stimulating. Much like the Pan's Labyrinth sans the fantastical creatures. I fell for the cuteness of Alexandria and Roy... For more movie info click here .

Tear-Jerkers...

Just want to rant about a couple of films that I've watched recently which made me go awww...

The Chorus

Ever since I watched the films Amelie and A Very Long Engagement, I am hooked on watching foreign films specially if it is French. A very touching movie which I recommend. For synopsis click here.

The Kite Runner

I know this movie was shown here in the Phils. but didn't saw it because I thought that it is boring. I was wrong. Another touching movie which I definitely recommend. For details click here.

The Man of My Life

Again, another French film which I liked. Movie details are here