Me Galit sa Mundo Teh?!

Bumisita kanina sa bahay ang pinsan ko at dahil na rin sa pagkasabik niya na me makasamang tao ay hindi na niya namalayan ang oras at inabot na siya ng 12 bago niya maisipang umuwi ng bahay. (Cinderella lang ang drama?!) ((hehehe naalala ko tuloy yung time na nabuko ako ng mga kaklase kong lalaki nung grade 4 ako na kumakanta ng cinde-relli cindere-lli dahil nabobore nako sa klase at pinanood ko lang ulit siya nun)). At dahil inutusan ako ng aking nanay ( naisip ko rin naman na yun) ay inihatid namin sa sakayan ang pinsan namin. So kwentuhan lang kami ng kwentuhan ng biglang nabulabog ng isang crash ng bote sa harapan namin. Siyempre nagulat ako plus tingin sa pinanggalingan ng pagkabasag. Naguluhan pako dahil parang wala namang second floor yung building kung saan me boteng nahulog. Hanggang sa bumulaga sa harap namin si ate na hawig nung bida sa The Grudge at ng ordinaryong palaboy. Mygod scary talaga siya. Siyempre kelangan poise pa rin, mamaya habulin pa kami e tipong samin siya talaga nakatingin. So dedma ke ate, tuloy tuloy pa rin sa paglakad sa sakayan kahit na gusto ko na talagang tumili sa takot. (Kung di ko pa kasama pinsan at kapatid ko baka napayakap pako ke kuya na nakasabay namin na mukhang cute ahehehe) Aba si ate di natuwa sa pagbasag niya nung bote at kinuha niya yung isang kahoy at nagpulpok naman ng mga metal gates nung mga shops. Di ko na kinaya yun at talagang pinasakay ko na yung pinsan ko ng kahit anung masasakyan niya sabay lakad ng mabilis palayo habang pinipigilang tumili at syempre mukhang kalmado pa rin. Yun pa naman isa sa kinakatakutan ko, mga baliw na hybrid taong grasa. Nawala tuloy antok ko si ate kasi me galit sa mundo...

M is for the Mistletoe...

Habang ako ay naglalakad pauwi kanina ay may nakita akong mga bulilit na nagppraktis sa covered court malapit sa aming munting tahanan. Napangiti lang ako dahil naalala ko yung mga panahon na ako ay mumunting bata pa. Nung time na nageensayo ang buong klase namin sa classroom o kaya dun sa open area sa kalagitnaan ng araw ng mga iba't ibang christmas songs with matching actions pa. Naalala ko pa na ingat na ingat ako lagi sa props namin at costume dahil syempre gusto ko bongga ako sa mga pictures at hindi mukhang sabog tulad ng mga brusko at mahaharot kong kaklase nun. At syempre tanda ko pa rin yung time na nagperform kami sa entablado nung ako ay nasa Prep ng Christmas Alphabet tapos kumalong ako ke Santa para mag-wish. I just wish ganun pa rin ka carefree ng life ko ngayon. Pero ngayon imbes na ako ang kakalong ke Santa, mukhang ako na ang kakalungan ng mga bata sa laki ng aking tyan kulang na lang ang costume. Imbes na props at costume na lang ang iintindihin ko e mga adult stuff na ang aking iniintindi... hainaku makakanta na nga lang ng GaGa

Bouncing Back...

1 month to go at matatapos na naman ang taon. Time really fly so fast pero parang angtagal ng taon na to. Naalala ko nung mga panahon na to last year e bagong salta ako sa isang munting hospital sa San Mateo nagppraktis ng sayaw para sa Xmas party. This year has been a real rollercoaster ride for me. The later part of the year was really painful for me pero I know that somehow it made me stronger and changed my perspectives about some things in life. Right now, I'm trying to pick myself up, get back to my usual self and hopefully 2010 would be a better year...

Patulugin niyo ako...

Waaah!! Kelangan ko na ng tulog kaso mukhang hindi ko maatim na makatulog ngayung gabi... Habang ako ay nakahiga at malapit na pumunta sa dreamland meron akong kakaibang naramdaman dito sa kwarto at feeling ko me kasama ako ng biglang merong malakas na nagpop na kung ano. Leche talaga!!! Nawala tuloy ang antok ko. Waaahhh... Sakto talagang ako lang ang mag-isa sa kwarto at nakasara na ang ilaw. I just hope one time incident lang to at hindi na umabot hanggang Halloween...

Honest Mistake...

Me nangyari na naman sakin kanina na maisasama ko sa listahan ko ng embarassing moments of my life. Habang chinecheck ko kung meron pang mga residenteng hindi pa nakakapagayus syempre tinignan ko ang bawat sulok ng ward. At nasurprise with a hint of hiya ako ng nakita ko yung isang wafung patient na kakatapos lang maligo at palagay palang ng twalya. At siyempre tamang tama rin na nagkatitigan kami habang ginawa niya yun... waaahhh naalala ko palang nagiinit nako sa hiya. Buti nalang mabait siya kasi hindi siya nagamok at sinabi lang niya sakin "Ok lang yun" sabay tapik sa braso ko then smile nung nag-sorry ako sa kanya sa nangyari.... waaahh hindi ko tuloy alam kung nangtetempt pa si Kuya. (Gagana pa kaya ulit yung reason ko kahit na hindi na siya honest mistake next time? ahihihi)

Elemental Damage

It was a week that I won't forget for the rest of my life.

Flood:

It was another rainy Saturday morning and even though the weather was conducive to sleep I went to our duty not knowing that in hours I would walk in the flooded streets of the Metro. I was still complacent while I was on the train back home knowing that our street in Marikina never ever in my history living there reached the knee part. Everyone was at awe when we reached Sta Mesa because we couldnt see the road anymore. The whole area was flooded. We could only see the hood of the cars parked. The usual bridge on the creek near U.E. was lost underwater. I only felt the intensity of the situation when I saw the Marikina River which is usually just around the edges of the riverbank even when it rains. Everyone was shocked when we saw it at the edge of the bridge. I received a text from my mom telling me to not go home anymore since the water was already waist deep at our street. Then I heard that Ligaya was already chest deep. We opted to just stay at a friends house. At first we were relieved that the flood there was just ankle deep. Then flood came in without warning. Within the hour we were already knee deep. I was worried sick the whole night because the last text that I got from my mom was that the house was already flooded.

We were off early Sunday morning. We walked for an hour from Santolan to Marcos H-way. The scene was like it was taken off from a sci-fi movie. Mud was everywhere. Cars were at stand still and people were walking in every direction. When I reached the overpass I was surprised that there were still flood in Marcos H-way. I was more surprised when I reached our subdivision because the flood was still waist deep. I acted on my better judgment and went ahead because I wanted to be home and see how they are.

Fire:

Tuesday night. I was out because I had to go to the family doctor to have a check up since I was having diarrhea. I probably got it when I waded to the murky waters of the flood. I was about to go on the train when I got a call from my brother telling me to not go home anymore because there was a fire a house away from ours. I almost broke down at the train station. I was sobbing on my way to W's place. After what happened at the flood, then now this and everytime I wasn't always around to see my familys safety.

Electricity:

Thursday night. We were still living like we were in the Middle Ages. We were playing a deck of cards when I saw a spark outside the window. I went to the window to examine further and lo and behold sparks were flying like it was New Years Eve on the electrical line just outside our house. Panic ensues once again in our household. Good thing was Meralco was just outside our house after a few minutes.


Now everything is getting back to its normalcy and I hope it does. I couldn't sleep last night because of the incoming storm. I was checking up on our street to see if it is flooded. I just wish for a ray of sunshine for the whole year.

Funky dreams...

I think I should stop watching any crazy ass shit on the tv or movies because it is disrupting my sleep. I think it was just days ago when I woke up crying because I dreamt that W left me and wouldn't take me back. Now, I woke up with a heart attack because of another funky dream:

I think the setting was futuristic since the transportation is not land based but aerial. I was either
a.) a spy or
b.) I was part of a big syndicate and I was

a.) sabotaging their plans or
b.) I was betraying them or both.

Either way, I was on a ship (like the one the villain on Up had) and I knew that the leader as well as the other members knew what I was up to but they were being mum about it. I was already thinking of my escape plan since I know that I'm already dead meat. Then the leader went to my room to see if I was already settled in. We talked and I knew that he was just waiting for me to slip. Then he asked me to buy him something and I knew that this was just a trap. Then someone called him up. By this time my mind was racing of all the scenarios that I could do to escape. Then he was already at my back then he pushed me towards the window and I was falling then I woke up. Epekto ata to ng sobrang pagkaadik ko sa Lost at 24... hahaha

Why I love you...

In one of our conversations W wondered why I fell in love with him. He could sometimes get too hard on himself, somehow belittling himself. So I told him some of my reasons why I did. "Hmmm na-in love ako sa iyo kasi sweet ka... mabait... pasensyoso etc.." ( hmm ginagawa lang kaya niya yun to make me stroke his ego? hahaha) So I asked him: "E ikaw bakit moko love?" His reply was "Hmmm mahal kita kasi mataba ka, lagi mokong pinapagselos, isip bata etc..." (atalagang inuna niya ang pagiging mataba ko sa listahan ng dahilan kung bakit niya ako love... grrr) Sabi ko "Bakit parang wala naman atang positive sa mga sinabi mo?" Ang sagot lang niya eh: "Hindi naman dapat lahat positive eh" And I thought I was going to hear some good stuff.

Honestly, W wasn't my ideal guy. He is shorter than me, younger than me and let's just say that sparks wasn't there on our first date. However in time, little by little all the criteria that I made were broken down by W. Yes he may not be model material but I smile whenever I try to picture his face. He made me a sucker for love stories. When we saw Up, I cried over the love story of Carl and Ellie. I cried because I was picturing our love to be like that. I was wishing that we could be like them. Growing old together. (ok maybe not too old kasi ayoko talagang tumanda as in matanda... ayan napaiyak na naman ako just thinking about it) I love him because he is my total opposite and yet he understands me completely. I love him because he makes me laugh and appreciate simple things. I love him because of all that and many more...

Take note...

Just when I was to give up on everything including us, He texted me this : "Basta alam ko masaya ako pag kasama kita. Ang buhay talaganag may ups and downs. Dapat minsan kelangan natin magsacrifice para sa taong mahal natin. Yun ang ginagawa ko kasi mahal kita. Gusto ko lang makita mo kung gano ka kaimportante sakin." I almost cried when I read this but I was in the public so sinupress ko but it made me realize how unfair I was to him and reminded me again how great his love was. I think I'll be ok.

Jaded

I cant sleep. I've been thinking about what happened last weekend. How people could be so insensitive and unappreciative to someone. About how friends suddenly change just because they found another company or how they don't value what you've had together because of something. About how fragile a relationship is. One day you're bonded like steel and then burnt the next second. I am questioning abot my own relationships and right now I'm jaded...

X marks the spot...

Talk about awkward. Earlier this afternoon, habang hinahatid ko si W sa kanyang opisina dahil nagkita kami saglit at sinamahan ko lang siyang bumili ng mga gamit niya ay mayroong isang pangyayaring hindi ko inaasahan. Para lang siyang eksena sa isang pelikula, yun nga lang mas mabilis ang naging pangyayari. Dahil sa kagustuhan niyang ihatid ko siya hanggang sa pintuan ng kanilang opisina ay nagkatagpo ang landas namin ng kanyang x for 3 years na nangyaring kawork niya ngayon at kaklase ko nung college. 200 meters palang ay namukhaan ko na siya. (s$*&^% si *&^*&!!) Ok poise kere lang tuloy ang lakad. Kahit na a part of me just want to go to the other way to escape from the awkward moment. Lumagpas kami. Nag hi siya ke W. Deadma. Nag hi siya sakin. Hi ng labas ng ilong naman ako. Bakit ko papakitang apektado ako. Wait bakit ba ako apektado hahaha. Hindi ko rin alam. Siguro kasi hindi kami close ever since college. Siguro kasi ayaw ko lang isiping na for 3 years naging silang ng taong minamahal ko ngayon. Basta alam ko mas maganda ako sa kanya hahaha.;p

500 ka lang talaga kuya...

Yesterday, I was happily plumping myself away. Then I overheard two kids (kids talaga younger lang sila sakin ng 2 years). The guy was telling the girl to register for the upcoming elections since they are eligible to vote by then. The girl was hesitant at nawindang lang ako sa panghikayat nung guy sa kanya. "500 din yun" Nainis lang ako ng unti at muntikan pang magsermon kaso pinigilan ko nalang ang sarili ko. I don't think of myself as a patriot. Heck, I already gave up that this country will change for the better. Lalo na kung maraming katulad yung lalaking narinig ko na kayang kayang ipagbili ang sarili niya para lang sa 500 pesos. Kung maraming katulad nung babae na naghehesitate na makialam sa magiging future ng bansa natin. Kung patuloy pa ring magpapadala ang karamihan sa kung sino ang sikat. Alam kong kahit ako hindi ko pa alam kung sino ang iboboto ko sa 2010 pero hinding hindi ko ipagpapalit ang essence ng pagiging Pilipino para lang sa 500 pesos...

Lost and Found...

In life you lose a lot of things. Simple things like a key, handkerchief, wallet etc. to the most valuable ones like friends, loved ones or even yourself. Before, I always get too affected whenever I lose something. But I got a taste of the real world. You cannot guarantee anything to not get lost. And if you do found them again, it may be too late. You may have found a replacement for it or it doesn't have the same value as it were before. Things happen or maybe I'm just being cynical after having a 24 marathon. hehehe

butterfinger

Everyone has their ideals. Yesterday, I longed for mine. I doubted myself probably because the weather wasn't cheery enough. But I needed that. It is often in times of hurt that you get to see who matters.

Flu Fiasco

Napaparanoid nako sa kapaligiran ko ngayon dahil sa kumakalat na inluenza a h1n1 virus. Lahat ng umuubo at sinisipon ay pinaghihinalaan kong baka carrier nito. Iniisip ko na ngang magsuot ng mask kaso dyahe naman yun hehehe. Sa sobrang pagkaparanoid ko my imagination naisip ko ang mga eksena sa mga zombie movies kung saan ambilis nilang "manghawa." Kaya wala na munang public life for me not unless it is definitely safe to our in the public that often. I really hope that they'll resolve this quickly but since we are in the Phils. isang malaking goodluck nalang... haizz

Issue ba talaga yan???

Hainaku naiirita na talaga ako sa lahat ng atensyon na binubuhos ng mga tao lalu na ng pulitiko sa issue about the sex scandals of Hayden. I don't know much about the legal system pero kelangan ba talaga senate pa ang mag-hearing sa kanila? Hindi ba dapat mga mas seryosong mga bagay ang tinatalakay ng senado imbes na ang drama ng mga celebrity? Napakarami ng mga sex scandal na lumipas pero bakit hindi naman nila pinansin before? Honestly, I don't feel any sympathy towards Katrina Halili over this. Ginusto naman niya yun eh. Kung hindi siya nakipag-sex kay Hayden magkakaroon ba siya ng video? Tapos ngayon gusto niyang palabasing biktima siya? Celebrities...

Just Enjoy the Show...

Bitten by the Lovebug...

Grabe na to!!! I'm so over emotional these days. Bawal na sakin ang mga mushy stuff dahil palagi nalang ako napapaiyak or worse mapapahagulgol. (Star Trek opening) I can't help myself. Mukhang sobrang inlababo nako sa kanya. I could already see myself having a future with you. I'm scared of what's going to happen to me if things won't work out but right now I just want something that would make me remember how you made me so happy and grateful to have met you... =)))

Ay Kuya napakapayat mo...

Habang ako ay nagbabaybay (dugo ang ilong) patungong Philcoa kahapon, nainis ako sa driver nung jeep at ang kanyang ever dependable partner barker. Humihirit kasi sila na kaya hanggang dose ang jeep nila. At dahil hindi na sila makapagsakay nagpaparinig na sila sa mga pasaherong medyo healthy. (Hindi ako kasama dun) Nakakaasar lang kasi sya rin naman e mataba. May ibang tao talagang walang breeding.

Mak+Blast

I had a good morning, slow afternoon and a fun evening yesterday. Another bonding moment with a bunch of good friends and meeting of new people courtesy of Mak. A laughing trip ensues after our vocal chords were exercised. And to top it off I spent some qt with my B after. Happiness.

Starting my day with a prayer...

I'm not a religious person but I was touched when B texted me this prayer:

"Thank you Lord for another beautiful day. Thank you for not letting him give up on me. Light our way for eternal relationship and walk with us once more today." Amen.

This really made my day.;p

hope this one lasts...

My former template got trashed because of something about photobucket. I got frustrated because I really wanted that design to be my blog's look for the rest of my blog life. That's part of the reason why I haven't had the urge to write even though I had lots of things that I wanna write about. New layout again. Hope this one lasts...

Ramblings again...

I have a lot I wanted to tell you but I just can't because I don't want to see you hurting...
I'm sorry I'm the most unstable person you've ever met. I admit I tend to be impatient and easily bored and that you become my personal punching bag. Yes I dream of having a future with you but the cynic in me sometimes thinks otherwise. I know there is no forever and I'm doubting whether I am that strong of a person to make it last that long. But I want to. You make me feel secure whenever we're together. That you'll want me for the rest of your life. I don't know. Things change.

Batangas Blast

A trip that has long been overdue. Me and my classmates from A01 finally got together for a summer outing. Even though there were people who backed out, delays and the limited time to spend together. We had a freaking good time just catching up, hanging out again and another great excuse to let out our cam-whorishness(nyahahaha). I really hope that we make this a yearly affair... hehehe

Nice campaign...

moments ito...

Natural na ata sakin ang pagiging reklamador ko dahil kahit na maayos ang lahat ay makakahanap pa rin ako ng pede kong ireklamo hehehe at dahil dun natanong ko siya...

A: Bakit ba lagi kang umo-oo sa lahat ng gusto ko? Hindi ko tuloy alam baka napipilitan ka lang...

B: Kasi gusto ko kung anung gusto mo. Masaya ako pag masaya ka atsaka hindi ko naman gagawin ang hindi ko gusto eh...

A: (Kahit kinilig na di pa rin nakuntento) E baka lang kasi nawawala ka na dahil sakin...

B: Ikaw nga ang kumukumpleto sakin pano ako mawawala...

Kala ko hindi ako magkakamoments ng ganito... I'm really happy I found you ;p

Y

Why does it have to feel like this?

Why do I have to be in constant thought?

Why does it have to be this way?

Why the complications?

Why do I not care?

Why am I asking these?

Mission Impossible?

It's frustrating that everytime I see a friend of mine from college the first comment out of their mouths is "uy ang lusog mo" Feeling ko tuloy obese nako. Alam ko medyo lumaki ako ng unti pero I'm trying to work on it. At ngaung nalalapit na ang summer outing ng college friends ko. Mas lalo tuloy akong napressure sa pagbabawas ng timbang. Hindi naman ako pedeng magpalipas ng isang meal dahil nga me hyper-acidity nga ako. Mission: 2 weeks na super exercise nyahaha Effort naman to hindi naman ako mataba...

Back Again...

After being disconnected for what seemed like ages, I am connected to the net once more. (Damn that wretched Surabaya virus!!!) Sino ba kasi nagiisip na gumawa ng mga ganung?! Hindi ko tuloy na-blog ang Watchmen na akala kong kasing ganda ng 300. Ok lang rin naman siya pero medyo matagal nga lang. Nakakadistract pa si Dr. Manhattan most of the time. Isa pang disappointment ang Race to Witch Mountain dahil ang akala kong exciting e hindi naman pala. Buti nalang cute yung guy na alien dun. Looking forward for the summer films like Monsters vs. Aliens, Wolverine, Star Trek, Transformers, Harry Potpot at marami pang iba. Hindi ko rin na blog ang latest coffee hangout, A's exploits sa buong hospital at ang frustration ko over W's X. Good thing I'm back again woohoo...

Harder Better Faster

All Nighter...

This is a weekend to remember yet again. The girls from work and I went somewhere with blaring lights, slow music and bodies gyrating sensually for all ogling eyes to see. And even though our plan didn't end up as we had planned earlier which was to just stay there for 2 hours then go to a club and dance the night away. Since most of us were first timers and most of our kachings went poof to the beverages which were way overpriced.( A Sprite for 150. ) We opted to just stay and fill our eyes with amazing sights. This was our only outing that we didn't get any photoops but one of the most memorable yet.

With practically no sleep I have to head off somewhere only W knows where and spend the rest of the day with him...=p

Siya at ang kanyang Sagwan...

Yesterday Me and Mckey went to the UP Film Institute to watch the premiere of Sagwan. The event was just emailed to me by a friend and I became interested because the photo for the movie looks promising. We were surprised at how many people turned out yesterday night because the whole place was jampacked. We didn't even got a seat since we were too shy to see if they were selling tickets already. Since we already put an effort going there we might as well watch the movie even if we have to stand. Personally, the movie had its moments especially when Marimar was on the scene. Somehow I didn't get the whole point of the movie. Was it about the love story of Cecilia and Alfred? Was it about Alfred's search for his sexuality? Was it about the issue of hustling in the river of Tatalon? Somehow all of those didn't really seem to connect to me.

Happy Hearts Month...

-from roborange

6 Months and Fighting...

Yesterday was one of those rare days where I got to do something for the whole shift. And it was to bag and monitor a pre-term baby. It was very hard to see the expression of the family as they saw their tiny baby fighting for her life. What's even harder is to hear that the attending physician not telling them the whole truth just because they dont have the means to afford the necessary procedures and equipments to give that baby a chance. I know it will just be a slim chance but he shouldn't have told the family that we didn't have any incubator just because he knew that they couldn't afford it. It was just sad to think that a person who swore that they would save lives would trade money over life. 

Ang saya naman ng trabaho na to

6 months

100k dollars salary

3-bedroom beach home complete with plunge pool and golf buggy

tapos ang gagawin mo lang ang magstroll sa beach, snorkel, picturepicture, mag-blog at magpainterview.

"Best Job in the World"

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A Different Kind of Bonding Experience...

A supposedly overnight swimming turned into a different kind of bonding experience with my friends yesterday. Instead of opting to go to the boondocks to swim and freeze to death. Ja changed the location to somewhere we could relax and still have some fun in the water. So we went to a spa facility near Roxas. I heard Ja's account of his experience here as well as Michael's since both of them have been there before and I am anxious of the part where we have to be nekkid when you're going to use the pool since I haven't lost my holiday fats and I'm a very shy person. 

When we got there, I was kind of in shock with the environment because I'm not used to people just letting it all loose. What's even awkward is to have to see your friends nekkid. I have to filter out the images I was getting. It was kind of liberating once you get used to it. I caught up with Jeje and Ker who I haven't seen in a while. After the massage, we headed over to Starbucks to bond over a cup of coffee courtesy of Maki (thanksthanks angyaman talaga nyahaha) I had a really good time last night and even though my whole body is sore I'm rearing to go another time... I heard someone's birthday is coming up (hemhem) 

Kill Me...

When I was a teeny tiny boy still confused how the world works, I dreamt of living a long life. Today, I really need to think of hiring someone to kill me at a certain age. Although I do want to experience life for as long as I could I don't think I could bear the different things associated with old age such as wrinkles, flabby and sagging parts, illness and disease, being dependent and so on. I assisted on a case today involving a very very old grandma who has an ulcer on her perianal and sacral area. During the operation, I need to perform manual evacuation since the area must be kept clean and for the convenience of the surgeon itself. Even though I don't have the right to be squirmish about these things because this is the profession I vowed to. I really can't help it since never in my whole life did I dream of having to manually get someone else's shit. That was definitely an experience, not very pleasant but still an experience. 

Anuka Anak ng Diyos...

Surprise, surprise. The universe pulled a prank on me. hahaha. Earlier this morning I received a text message from a big hospital informing me that I was scheduled for a training program for their staff nurses. I was more than surprised since it could be a big break for me. I called everyone who I knew had the experience of the screening process of that said hospital and they were as surprised as I am since I haven't really undergone any process at all. I haven't even answered the initial exam. They told me to confirm and so I did. Lo and behold they forwarded my number under a different name. Akala ko pa naman anak nako ng Diyos nun with all the good things coming my way... nyahaha

Red...

I hope this bliss will last the same day next year... ;p

The Year I Hope Will Be...

2008 whizzed by so fast and now is the start of another year that hopefully will be better than last year. I think most, if not all of the plans that I have made the previous year didn't happen because I lack commitment. So this year, I really need to COMMIT to everything that I am doing. I have to commit to not eat so much since my waistline is alarmingly HUGE. Besides that, hopefully I could get to commit to join a good friend to go to the gym which I am so freaking scared of because I get intimidated by the gorgeous bodies around me. (not to mention that I might not be able to work out since I'm staring at someone) I definitely need to commit to be on time in every appointment that I have since I haven't been on time ever on most of them last year. A good friend of mine even lectured me on that bad habit of mine. (Painful) Last year, I lost a couple of friendships and hopefully this year I could commit to not lose any and just gain a couple more. Last but not the least, I really hope that I get to have my break on my career so I need to commit on getting one.... ;p